Its easier to stay here
To stay in this state of suspension
Days drifting by
Thoughts awhirl
To say “I’m figuring it out”
“I don’t know what I want to do”
“I’m hurt, and
bruised and need time”
“I have to heal,
to think, to feel again”
By doing so, I’m stuck, stuck in my thoughts, stuck in the
moment
Its time.
Time to take a significant
step.
Not the baby steps of the past
months
Not the distracted
steps of cleaning, or other every day incidentals
Big… Scary… Soul
Stretching steps
So how do I do that?
Treat it just as I would any engineering project,
steps that include intellectual along with psychological and emotional
Break it down
Create a roadmap
Formulate sprints
And in 2 weeks I won’t be here, in this concrete-shoed spot
I’ll be in a new place
On a new path
Freed from the continuous circle of
uncertainty
I’m strong enough now
I’ve figured it out
I’ve healed
I’m feeling again
I’m ready to move forward,
Picking up one foot at a time
Taking that step, and the next and the
next
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